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Overall I consider angels quite beneficial but they require a baseline purity and understanding.
>because in my case the repulsion was so strong, perhaps mutually
Now this is the peculiar thing. We have internal spirits that we carry either as karma accident or they slumber in our soul/flesh or they are "ancestral spirits" (not always benevolent sometimes they are a curse)
If you have anything like that even if they don't appear before the angel they can manipulate your energies either so you have negative opinion of the beings that are their literal antithesis or in "my case" I found out I have these lowly spirits so deeply within me they manipulated the flow of my energies so they don't get hit by these "angelic emanations". Realized they are so deeply within me and they are "part of me" to such a level they are almost "me". Real hard to solve that issue because it requires several levels of ego mastery and higher energy awareness and takes time to "get it right".
>that I've never managed a conversation
Who or how did you try to connect?
The problem with most sources that angels are here "since creation" but their name and designation changed depending how their author or tradition interacted with them. Not to mention while daemons demons and daimons in one culture are benevolent in others they are harmful because people didn't always knew the difference if they were not initiated and don't always refer to the same type of beings at all. Like how crowley drew that alien and said now we call them angles and people might call them something else as time goes by. The reason why most people called everything "angel" because if they are not angels or saints then they are demons so people watched out to not "trigger" the religious back then (in some cases the beings larped as angels or saints to not trigger the medium ofc. There are so many entities and land bound spirits that "larp" as angels and saints at places where christianity took over and they are fulfilling a function thus it is allowed to do it. Really funny how it works.)
>Perhaps this is connected to my fascination with LHP
Yeah I don't know what is your idea of "LHP" here. Angels have a big picture thinking and they make you go through "tests" in some cases and if you are not ready and fail it then it's better that way. All prophets are chased out of their hometown for a reason in Abrahamic history and that is only it's "social aspect" of the burdens they might grant. The energetic burden angels can grant is not always easy to circumvent as long you are trapped in misconceptions. If you are "driven" by lowly desires they won't help you because that will just make you kill yourself in the process. Was weird discovering that
the energy of hentai games made my neck stop hurting because that is such a new "artistic expression" that made the angelic energy that almost made me doozy instantly go away. Made me realize how I will have to strengthen and purify my desire bound energies to find my main issue that hardens my meridians and how I can withstand the "angelic might". I am getting real bored of hentai games and as much as my teenage self used is as a gateway fascination for the internet I do not desire to rely on it further. The reason why I mentioned it because it was a surprise to me that "it works" instantly because the negative energy within me calmed down as I looked at it and stopped tensing over the weight of the angelic current. Was one of my wtf moments
>Where else the fuck am I supposed to discuss about my experimental magical practice
This. It's near impossible to find a replacement.
Will read through the lemurian thread soon but noticed an energy signature and when that happens I get halfway initiated into the system and I know that it will make me write so much characters I will be there for days. I have my ways with alternate timelines and timeflows and I have a desire to flex those muscles but it needs preparation and time from my part.
>I don't care if people are blogposting larpers
This made me remember something.
The sunflower BO literally told me to "Larp a little" as I write my posts because they become too easy to trace. Then I told him that my magic is going through such a transformation every day that the next day my posts won't be the same as today. He "larps" to conceal crucial parts of his magic in some cases. Also I have no idea how to share these things without appearing as "blogposting". Those who try to write it in a "scientific way" will be called "pseuds" anyway so I don't think being called a larper is worse in these places. People don't see what a larp they do every day while living in this society and how it's killing them every second. Everything is a larp a meme or a psiop for those that never experienced anything organic in their life
>everyone is namefagging so don't speak their mind due to fears of looking crazy
This is the worst btw.
>people actually post way better information on imageboards than these new platforms
Hard to give up on them. The reason why I posted on sunflower because I required a fringe replacement and I felt how even that place was dying 3+ years ago if I don't put some "buzz" there. I didn't want imageboard occultism to die. People don't realize it's importance and willing to cage themselves in the unproductive shackles of "social media" without realizing it's perils. Saddening.
>They can always lurk first, just like in the old days
We should give them some bones to chew tbh. The tutorial neophyte threads will have to return.
>lurk before posting
That is mandatory on every imageboard ofc but most of the things we discuss is too high level for them. Magic 101 visualization meditation and "psiball" creation tier practice threads will have to resurface. They cannot lurk these advanced schizo autism threads that easily. Angels should get their own thread once we have more angelmancers.
>don't sound like a moron
As long as moronic posts are below 10% on any imageboard I do not dislike them. Sometimes they needed as a reminder who "lurks in the shadows". When they are the majority then we have a problem.
What I wrote is more of a "summary" tho and not exactly an in depth analysis and until knowing your involvement/experience with the angels I'm unsure how helpful is what I typed so far. There are mainstream angels and obscure ones and they are not as "typical" as the media portrays them even tho thanks to memes people are more aware of the "biblically accurate angels"